Being Autistic

So I’m on the spectrum and am adult-ish.  ðŸ¤£ 

It’s been a long struggle with people.  Figuring out how they work. What to do and not to do. See, people aren’t logical.  It’s just a fact.  

I see things in a very logical way.  If you do X then you do Y.   It is just how I see things.  It is confusing when people get mad a lot of times because it’s that ‘grey area’ that causes people to get pissed.  

Hey, I learn from my mistakes.  I do my best to prevent them but they occur.   I’ve made some huge ones in life because, logically, it is how things should work but they didn’t. Nearly got expelled once. 

Story for a different post but trust me, it was very stupid but my mistake was very logical.  

It is the unknown that scares me.  I’m terrified when in that happens because all my tricks don’t work so I’m just stuck floundering.  It’s hard to explain what it’s like. 

How about this.  You are in huge trouble.  It’s going to cost you your job/family or something else that means the world to you. The person is yelling and screaming at you. Here’s the catch though, it’s in a language you don’t understand. You’re terrified because you’re going to lose this thing that means the world to you. The person that’s going to take it away is yelling at you. If you could understand them, you would be able to respond.   

How would you feel? What would you do?  Yeah, I don’t know either.  

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